As we move into 2020 it has been a time of much contemplation for me. Mid-December I had to have a second surgery on my foot, which has kept me off the streets in 2019. I have spent much time trying to refocus what I do, and how I do it. It isn’t easy, but it is an obtainable goal.
As 2019 closed a number of people very close to me lost someone special. First my oldest BFF’s mother. She had Alzheimer’s for a number of years, so when she passed it was not her that was gone. What I mean is the person she was slowly disappeared through the years as her memory faded. It was her body that left us now. I had a realization in thinking about her. As I have written in the past, we have a Village. People who come into our lives who become family; I am the Mama of that family. When I was in my late teens/early twenties she was that to me <3
One of my dearest friends from the early days is aching from multiple losses. Her father passed Christmas 2017, her younger brother in October 2019, and then her Mother just a few weeks before this Christmas. They are a wonderful family, and we have stayed in touch over all these 40+ years. She was so very close to her mother. A relationship I strive to have with my own children. She was a wonderful example <3
We went to Florida to spend Christmas with Hubby’s parents. While we were there one of their good friends came to dinner. Her husband had recently passed, and it was a loss for all of them. They had been married for many years; I think she said 69. Such a hard loss to imagine <3
Later that day I received a text from my Big Cuz. Her older sister had passed away and “had the most peaceful look on her face and a half smile.” She had Parkinson’s and she was very ready to go <3
As I thought about these losses, I started to think about the future. They are physically gone but will be in our hearts forever. We do need to move forward and live the rest of our lives to the fullest. But that is so much easier said than done.
So, what wondrous things will 2020 bring? Hopefully, for those people grieving
their loss, to be able to find a way to move on without their loved ones.